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I don’t mean a discomfort about the lights turned off that would have been liveable. But I had a real deep, panic-driven — almost to the point of hysteria — fear about being in the dark by myself. In a recent Dianetics session, I uncovered an incident when I was 3 where I was hiding in a closet and got locked in! I hadn’t even consciously been “thinking” about it all these years but there it was.

It was a tremendous relief to go over it and over it and just like it says I hit a point I could remember all details and laugh about it! What a relief to not have this horrific fear anymore at all and I thank L Ron Hubbard for the piece of freedom that one incident gave me back.

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You bring up my success at work; oddly enough this is due to being a miserable bastard. I am pushing and forcing everything every step of the way. I attain my success with anger, hatred and ridicule. To be honest I am not happy with the way I am or the way I accomplish things. Once I run out of anger and hatred I will be apathetic again, and will start to probably fall all over again. I think my numbers would be astronomically better if I was a “Clear.” “If you have not noticed I have difficulty with your overwhelming happiness when you call, because of my own low tone scale rating, I have trouble with happy people.

I want to be part of something bigger than myself; I want to feel I can help change the world. I need to be more than I am. I am at an age and time when I want to be a hero and affect the world, I want to be a help. I am tired of being just another speck of sand on planet earth. My good intentions get muddled in my abberation and frustration with past life events.

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I also had a wierd feeling numb feeling in my hand.

I had some Dianetics and then some more and then I was able to move on I am not thinking about it, scared about it nor do I have any numb pain feeling.

I know bad things happen and I wished they did not.

But I am happy and enjoy life too much now and never want to be thinking about bad stuff all the time again.

Dianetics helped me get past that.

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Needless to say, the girl was devastated. When I saw her afterwards, she looked half-dead herself. Her complexion was ashen and she kind of shuffled instead of walking.

I gave her a 2-hour counseling session using the techniques of Dianetics. At the end of the session, she was okay. Her gait returned to normal and her complexion was clear. Pretty impressive results, but there was still more to do.

The next day I gave her another session. It only took half an hour to finish things up, and by the end of this session, she was actually happy! Her cheeks had a rosy appearance and she was smiling readily. I had helped her to totally recover from a traumatic incident in 2-1/2 hours of Dianetics counseling! And I was just a student at the time! Needless to say, I was impressed by those results.

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I recommended that my father learn how to do Dianetics auditing. My father took a bus that very night traveled about 12 hours and stayed in Mysore for 2 days to learn dianetics auditing and some assist processes.

He came back home and gave my cousin’s wife a touch assist and in 20 minutes, she was cheerful and completely in the present moment. I happened to call home just around that time, and she was so profusely thankful to me for having show the way out.

The next two days, my father gave her two Dianetics sessions that handled her loss completely. She was totally back to battery, that she found a job (she had not worked since marriage) and is living a very productive and busy life with her children.

It is just amazing to see the life changing effects one book and one process on the life of a person, who was so totally lost to grief.

Thanks to the author for codifying such a simple yet powerful technique that beats any psychotherapy that is out there, and for making it broadly available to the lay person.

Thanks also goes to the publishers and the Dianetics centers around the world that keep this valuable knowledge alive and well.

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Then I had a Dianetics session and found the link between this loss and many earlier losses, which all were piling up on me at once.

The grief passed through me, and I became myself once more, and stopped growing tumors!

I could think of my father with love, and with joy for having known him, and not with bitterness and regret. It was so much better.

I could enjoy the things in life that he had taught me without feeling grief every time I thought of him. What a relief!

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The steroids caused other problems, and I was on blood pressure medications, gaining weight, having joint problems, and was continually trying to control the asthma with other medications and inhalers to try to cut down on the steroid use. In April of 2006, I requested a leave of absence from my job to get knee surgery done. This coincided with a major asthma flare that put me in the hospital. I was fired from my job.

Now broke, overwhelmed, sick and in pain, my attitude and ability to pull out of the situation crashed.

My husband Lloyd, while a Scientologist, hadn’t been active in Dianetics & Scientology while we were married. He decided that he’d been off-lines quite long enough! He got in touch with a Dianetics Practicioner by the name of Chuck Bell that lived only forty miles from our little farm. Chuck came over to the house a couple times, had Lloyd go with him to do Dianetics seminars, and Lloyd went down to Chuck’s home several times.

I was initially distrustful of Chuck’s obvious happiness and enthusiasm, and told Lloyd so. (And yes, thinking of what my tone level was then gives me a smile now!) Chuck carefully coached Lloyd until when Lloyd suggested that I get some auditing from Chuck, I readily agreed.

My first Dianetics session was on the 7th of July, 2006. By the end of it, I could hardly wait for the next one. By the third, my asthma was completely GONE! By the end of the intensive, I knew that I wanted to learn to audit.

I started really reading Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health, did the on-line Extension Course, started on a new job, and started helping Chuck with his Dianetics study group. I REALLY started winning, and I started reading more and more L. Ron Hubbard. I started listening to the Congress Lectures, The Special Course on Human Evaluation Lectures, and getting lots more certainty that I HAD to learn to audit!

Chuck said that he was planning on going to Dallas for a celebration. I asked if I could ride along, and was wondering aloud how I could possibly get trained as an Auditor. A couple days later Chuck suggested that I join staff at the local Scientology Organization. My reaction was heartfelt and instant — OF COURSE!! HOW ELEGANTLY OBVIOUS!!! YES!!!!

I told Lloyd what I wanted to do, and having been staff at Narconon [a non-profit drug rehabiliation organization] in the past, he agreed.

When I got to the organization, it was already well-know that I was to join Staff. When I called Lloyd from the organization, he had two questions: “Do you have some reality on an Org now?” and “Have you joined?” I told him yes to both.

I arrived on staff the 7th of October, 2006 — exactly three months from my first Dianetics session.

My thanks and my love to my husband Lloyd, who recognized that only L. Ron Hubbard’s tech could save me.

My thanks and my friendship to my first auditor, Chuck, whose application of LRH tech pulled me out of that tailspin of succumb.

And always, always, to L. Ron Hubbard, my unbounded thanks and admiration for this incredible gift of freedom.

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Incidentally, my drug consumption during and after psychoanalysis worsened. When the therapist suggested that I get prescriptions for Valium from my doctor friends, (I worked at that time in a hospital) I knew I was wasting my time and money. I also knew that if I didn’t do something that worked soon, I’d be dead before I was 30.

That week a friend just so happened to come to my door who I hadn’t seen or spoken to in some years. She had been a former drug “buddy”. She took me to the beach, having me look at the environment, and kept me busy looking at things for the day, particularly each time when I reached into my bag for a drug (I always had something with me). She took me to her home and I met her family who I also had not seen in years.

They were all pleasantly “different” from when I last saw them, but couldn’t quite put my finger on how. She sat me down and gave me some instruction from the Dianetics Picture Book to show me how the mind worked. (I was understandably confused by the nonsense psychoanalysis said.) Then she showed me the Scientology Picture Book, which explained the relationship between the spirit to the mind. I had always known I was a spirit.

She then applied a very simple Scientology procedure to me, of course with my agreement and understanding. To my absolute pleasant shock, I realized that I had been taking drugs to get the same sensation that this Scientology procedure produced, which was a feeling of not being stuck in my head but having a feeling of space around me and calmness. I remember saying, “WOW! This is better than drugs!”

Two days later, I was able to restrain taking drugs, never again taking another drug. A purification program, along with further counseling addressing the subject of drugs, gave me the freedom from the desire to ever take another drug.

That was 27 1/2 years ago.

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