The DVD arrived today and my wife and I immediately watched Disc 1. Tomorrow we are going to watch Disc 2. Several years ago I got some Dianetics auditing and seeing the DVD reminded me of the awe and positive energy I felt from that first auditing session.
You bring up my success at work; oddly enough this is due to being a miserable bastard. I am pushing and forcing everything every step of the way. I attain my success with anger, hatred and ridicule. To be honest I am not happy with the way I am or the way I accomplish things. Once I run out of anger and hatred I will be apathetic again, and will start to probably fall all over again. I think my numbers would be astronomically better if I was a “Clear.” “If you have not noticed I have difficulty with your overwhelming happiness when you call, because of my own low tone scale rating, I have trouble with happy people.
I want to be part of something bigger than myself; I want to feel I can help change the world. I need to be more than I am. I am at an age and time when I want to be a hero and affect the world, I want to be a help. I am tired of being just another speck of sand on planet earth. My good intentions get muddled in my abberation and frustration with past life events.
Posted by Jim S. on Sep 26th, 2009